every time I see your face I feel stupid and happy
Figures as soon as I decide this is my ministry, I get writers block. Many false starts over the past couple of days.
There's some fabulous stuff happening in my life right now that I'm going to hold close for a little longer, but know that there's a happy glowing thing and the world looks like a pretty wonderful place from where I'm standing. I just don't have the right words yet. When they show up, this will be the first blog I tell, promise.
Nice to have some joy back. I miss it when it goes away, but at least now I've finally figured out that it will always come back. And it only took 33 years to learn that, so imagine how smart I'll be when I'm in my 60s. I'll just be a giant pulsating brain in a jar, yesirree.
There's a Godly Play thing where, instead of extinguishing the Christ candle, the light is changed. The light that is one place is changed so that it can be in all places. The light of Christ changes into smoke and then becomes invisible, but stays with us. The Godly Play trainer said that it's a bit of a burden for some families, because their children fight over who gets to change the light of every lit candle, but the kids always remember the explanation and say it to each other, which is so cool. I am really jazzed about starting Godly Play in a few weeks. I'm sure it will be completely awkward and strange at first, until we get the routine established, but then it's going to be so great.
Sorry, I have that same tangent every time Godly Play comes up. I'm just really excited about it . Anyway, I love that image of the light that is invisible but still present. I'm starting to think of joy that way. I can't always see it, but there is this little spark of joy or faith or something that is with me all the time, even during those really icky times when it feels like I'm out in the desert and everything seems hopeless. It's so much less scary when I remember that it isn't going to last forever, and that I still have everything I need to be joyful again when it's time for that.
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